being mom

Lately there has been a lot of posts on facebook like if your a mom put the time and weight of your child, and "I have carried a life inside of me" and on and on. Don't get me wrong these are totally awesome and amazing however they got me to thinking what really makes someone a mom. I am not doubting my validity as a mother, or anyone elses, just got me to thinking about my own processes in which I became one. I feel so blessed that I became a mom in the way that I did. I would not change it for the world although I would be completely lying if I told you that I don't wonder sometimes what it would be like to take that first positive pregnancy test, or feel the first kick, or know what its like to breast feed. But my journey has not been so different. In fact there are so many similarities I decided to write "Being Mom". sorry if you don't like it I wrote it for my girls and me just thought I would share!

Being Mom
Conception- I cannot remember the day you were conceived but I remember the day we got the call and how long we waited for that day.
First picture- I don't remember your first sonogram (if you even had one)but I remember the first time I saw your picture with a note attached that said "It's a girl", oh how I knew I loved you and we cried for hours.
Pregnancy- I don't know what it was like to carry you for 9 months, oh but I remember the wait and anticipation and longing to bring you home.
Body Changes- I don't remember stretch marks or hormones, but I remember the worry lines and gray hairs and oh yeah plenty of heartburn.
Labor- I don't remember how long or hard it was to bring you into the world, but I remember how long and hard it was to fill out all those papers and have home inspection after home inspection, interview after interview, background check after background check to determine if we would make good parents (and yes it was painful).
Birth-I don't remember what your first cry sounded like or what you looked like those first moments but I remember what my heart felt the first time you were put in my arms and someone told me you were mine.
First homecoming- I don't remember taking you home from the hospital for the first time but I remember the first time you came home we couldn't quit staring at you like you would disappear if we blinked.

I loved you before I even knew you and more everyday. There is no limits to my love for you. God choose you for me and me for you and that my child is what makes me a mother!

understanding

Today I am at a lost. When things happen that we don't understand it can truly shake you to your core. I have learned that a day will come when you sit back and say "oh that was the purpose" or "that happened because". Some of those moments will not come till we are threw with this world. Even in all our faith and all our trust in knowing God has a plan it doesn't make some pills any easier to swallow. As I sit greiving with some dear friends I know God is here. If nothing else I know He is here.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding" Proverbs 3:5

refreshed

So keeping with my self commitment to blog here I am. At first when I started blogging I thought this is more for me, kinda a medium in which to express my feelings and put them out there. Putting my feelings out there is so therapeutic for me so that I can't hide from them and pretend everything is hunky dorie fudge. Well then it quickly became I was hiding from the blog all together. However a friend pointed something very interesting out to me. On the dashboard of my blog there is a cool little button that says "stats". Such a harmless looking little button, till I realized people outside of my personal little community read this crazy little rant of mine. Well I hope that what they find here in my corner of the worldwide web is that the rain comes and the struggles they are plenty but as hard as it is sometimes I will lift my head and praise God for walking with me in the storm. Stay tuned for more adventures at the Moore's- they are always plentiful!

its been a while!

Well, it has been awhile since I blogged. Sorry about that! I guess in the long list of crazy things that happen to the Moore's you can add being robbed! They took my laptop and I just now got around to replacing it! As one of my best friends Tiffany said "only the Moore's"! Any who, heres what's new for us! We are currently working on Keli's adoption and ready to get that done! The boy child did return home with little word on his progress but I know he is safe. Well, to say the least with adopting a medically fragile child our thinking towards the future is evolving. There are new things on our horizon all which are exciting and scary all at the sametime! Just in prayer mode right now on how this is all going to come together. I am trusting God and why not look at all the amazing things He has done in my life so far! Well friends I will try to get better about blogging now that I have a puter again! Love you all!!!!

three

Word of warning this blog post is going to get pretty sappy! Don't say I didn't warn you!!!!
Well tomorrow my baby is turning three! I can't believe how time flies! Its also a dual celebration for us cause it is also two years ago on her first birthday that we met Gina and Paul in the parking lot of the Vernon walmart and took our baby home forever! What an amazing thing that God chose us to be her parents! So amazing to me that this precious girl started her life in a random utility shed where she was born, to the loving home of Daugherty's and then into our lives forever!!! Raelynn we love you forever and more everyday!!! Happy birthday my baby girl!!!!

"preschool"

Well the latest adventure has me racking my brain day and night. I have been researching like crazy and blog stalking to boot! My latest adventure has me trying my hand at "home preschooling". I have been trying to find ways to fill our days with fun but educational activities. Wow who knew there is so many great ideas out there! I just can't believe how creative some people are! So stay tuned for some of our crazy adventures in "home preschool". I am sure with Raelynn this is going to get interesting to say the least!!!!

my foster parent prayer

So today was a rough day. I took the kids to their first visit at their mom's house. It made the whole returning home process real for me. Then I remembered why we do this, for those precious babies. Our mission statement for this calling is to show every child in our home unconditional love, God's love, even if it is only for a day. So I pray this never gets easy. I pray I never harden myself to the pain of letting them go. If I don't get my heart broke every time then I am not fully loving these kids with my whole heart and they deserve to have every part of me! Not to mention if I closed myself off I would miss the best part of it all which is the precious innocent love I get in return! Thank you God for giving me tons of tiny footprints on my heart!